The Story of a Girl

Thanksgiving rant

2005-11-22T23:24:42Z

yanno... it kinda sucks. Thanksgiving is Thursday... a day when people sit around the table with their family and have a good meal. A lot of people even go places, but thats not the point. The point is to be with family. In my opinion this goes far beyond just the members of your household... but sadly, this year, this is what i am left with.
I suppose I should be grateful that im having a thanksgiving dinner at all... but somehow that just doesnt satisfy me. In the end, I kinda just wish it could be how it was when i was younger... before people got old, back when Thanksgiving was a fun day... with a bunch of people.
I remember when i was younger, in school once, being told to write about a tradition in my family.... and honest to God, I couldnt think of one for the life of me. Every year things are a little different... and im not one for change...

orangemnm204 @ 2005-09-10T23:54:00

2005-09-11T03:54:59Z

I have just realized that next semester I will be in the same exact class as my sister during 5/6. ENVIRONMENTAL Science with Mrs. Lee.

I'm not sure how I am supposed to feel about that lol.

That is all.

Ashley.

orangemnm204 @ 2005-08-22T21:24:00

2005-08-23T01:29:57Z

First day of band camp. Twas a very long day. I have a nickname now... to go along with the other like 7 i have. Because one of the kids saw me at Dairy Queen n knows i work there... that is now my name. Dairy Queen. Luckily i am not alone in that one because i made sure that he know calls Lisa Mattson's lol since thats where she works... and especially because she hoped that he didnt do that to her.
I continued my ritual of being matt, karl, mahony, n now nicks bitch... takin up their trash. It doesnt bother me to do it... so i dont care. Sometimes its fun... n im just weird like that. Plus, its not like they do it cuz they hate me; its all in fun.
On another note... walkin up to the field this morning... i came to the realization that i dont really like having to be a leader. its my senior year and i kinda wanna goof off.... but, i shant and cant.
umm... this entry is really pointless... i just kind of figured that i hadnt made one in a while, so i might as well... cuz really... not many ppl want to hear about my day at band camp... n those who do, were there lol.

~Ashley

orangemnm204 @ 2005-08-03T21:52:00

2005-08-04T02:11:52Z

I sat in the drivers seat of an '05 Mustang Convertible today. That makes my year.
That is all. Thank you.

PS It was like that one, only it had a black top, which was down of course.

PPS Fionna works at Lucas Ford n if u ever buy a car there you should tell them u know her

orangemnm204 @ 2005-07-13T21:52:00

2005-07-14T02:04:31Z

This goes out to everyone.
Everyone seems to have entries now about old friends... and losing them. I dunno what it is... but there seems to be a lot of that going on with the people i know. I know personally, that i feel like i'm losing 2 of my good friends; both of which i have known for almost 4 years now. One is going away to college or whatever and i hardly ever see or speak to anymore whereas the other just feels like i dont want to be her friend anymore.
Through out my years in twp i have gone through more good friends than i ever thought imaginable. I had Michelle, and then Keri, then Mikael, then Rachel, then Michelle again, then Karl, then Lauren and Ashley and Michelle, then Selee and Will, and then Ashley and Keri. Many of the friends have come full circle, meaning that we started as good friends, then stopped talking and then started again... but as time goes on im realizing that after high school i wont see many of these people again. I want to make the best of the time i have left with them.... and everyone else. I just wish things were easier than they are. Now to me, they seem easy. Both parties say they want to be friends and it shall be done. I guess its not that easy... but it should be. Everyone says ok yea, we'll hang out... but neither party picks up the phone to call the other, or one party is too busy and the schedules just conflict. So much comes in to play that did not before, when we were younger. Now we have to split our time between boyfriends, and friends, and jobs, and family... making things more complicated. Now we all just sit back and remember the old times... and how great they were... and how we wish we could have them back... rather than seizing the day... and picking up the phone to make something happen. Communication is key. Remember that.

I think im done rambling now...
Ashley

ok... im not done. I meant all that in an optimistic way... more like a revelation type thing... for people to realize that in order to hold on to what they have they need to communicate... without that... all is lost.
Lastly, i am thankful for those friends that i do have, for those that i had, and those that i hope to meet or regain touch with.
Thank you.

orangemnm204 @ 2005-06-24T14:19:00

2005-06-24T18:23:30Z

ok, so now i am back. Apparently, little to no one even noticed i was gone... but ok. I hated girls state the first 3 days i was there because it was all meetings and running and campaigning and such... and we all knew like no one. By the end we all knew eachother and we had a pep rally and city talent show and it was fun. I met a few cool people from all over NJ and i guess it was nice. One thing i did realize though is that I wil NEVER go to an all girls college. NEVER. Not that i needed to go spend a week at one for Girl's State to find that out, but still.
So i come home to a clean room, and a car that finally runs right; but at the same time, to people who didnt notice i was gone lol... thanks.

Ammendment just for Jessie-Lynn: A few ppl did notice i was gone... and for that, I commend and appreciate them.
<3 Ash

orangemnm204 @ 2005-06-18T21:04:00

2005-06-19T01:05:58Z

I'm so excited... I am going to Girl's State and I am leaving tomorrow. I will return on the 24th. Try not to miss me too much. I will have the cell.

Much love.
Ashley

orangemnm204 @ 2005-06-17T12:34:00

2005-06-17T16:40:26Z

So, i went to graduation last night... it was nice. I'm gonna miss a few of them, and it was pretty sad to watch.... and then to think that'll be me and so many others next year was just weird. I remember being in elementary school thinking that id be in school forever and it would be forever until i actually reached 12th grade. Although, now i'll be a senior... and i'm excited.
After grad ash n i talked to ppl, gave hugs, n whatnot. Then, we went to DQ and visited my sister and ash got to see some ppl she used to work with. From there we went back to her house where we sat on her porch, n then in my car, using the trunk release as our way to turn the overhead light on when it went off. It was then that Shawn scared us half to death, because it was dark. Twas fun.
Now, it's summer... and im not really that excited. I like the structure of school, rather than the lackadazicalness of summmer. In school you always see everyone, everyday; whereas over the summer it is up to you to see those people and find things to do. blah.
<3 Ash

orangemnm204 @ 2005-06-11T20:17:00

2005-06-12T00:21:56Z

I really dont have the urge to write in here anymore... like at all. Although, a few moments ago i became bored and did a survey a ma bob. current:
outfit: green shirt with a tank top underneath, my work jeans, n socks
hairstyle: up, with my sunglasses on my head
jewelry: none

do you:
whine a lot: probably
yell a lot: eh, no
hate a lot of people: no
have too many friends: no
want to die: no
have a bf/gf: no
do drugs: no
wear dark colors: I don’t think I do
dye your hair: nah

have you ever:
kissed someone: yep
gotten drunk: only buzzed.
talked on the phone for over 3 hours: yea
left the country: nope
had a party with over 30 people: no
stolen something: no
caught something on fire: well, plastic spoons and forks
cheated on someone: never.
wanted to cheat on someone: no
asked someone out: lol yeah… 7th grade
had a dream, then the next day it happens: not that I recall

last person:
you touched: I dunno
you talked to: probably kathleen when she sneezed
you hugged: nick pants
you kissed: mike
you instant messaged: dane
who broke your heart: either mike or karl, one of the two

are you:
understanding: majority of the time
open-minded: i think so.
arrogant: eh, sometimes
insecure: sometimes
interesting: I try
hungry: not recently
smart: depends on the topic… if its geography then no
moody: sometimes
childish: maybe, I dunno
independent: yes, to an extent, but yes
hard working: yeah
healthy: I try
emotionally stable: usually, though I tend to hold a lot in
shy: I used to be really shy… im not as much anymore, but probably still yea
difficult: no
attractive: most of the time
bored easily: depends.
thirsty: yeah
obsessed: on occasion
angry: I was when I got home from work after the girl I worked with didn’t wait on many customers n left it all for me
sad: nah
happy: nah
trusting: sometimes too much
ill: not at the current moment
talkative: depends on who im talking to and the topic
ignored: yep
reliable: yea
self-disciplined: yea
sleepy: yea
lonely: yep

info about yourself:
what is your birth name? Ashley Barbara Moore
what is your birthday?: February 4, 1988
current age?: 17
do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: no
how tall are you?: 4 10 and a half
shoe size?: 6
brothers/sisters?: a sister
job?: dairy queen

favorites:
what is your favorite band?: I dunno
color?: it varies
soda? I havent been drinking much soda
music?: pop-punk, punk, rock, eh and sometimes country
stores in the mall?: chick fil-a… if that counts lol
ice cream?: strawberry
roller coaster?: either Medusa or Nitro
candy?: I dunno
cd?: I don’t have a fav
cookies?: I dunno
juice?: fruit punch
holiday?: christmas because of the family togetherness
month?: I dunno… something with nice weather

in the last 48 hours:
cried?: no
missed someone?: yea
yelled at someone?: lol yea… pat before the gala about the trumpet thing… that was amusing
drove somewhere?: yep… many places
talked to someone on the phone?: yep
been online?: of course
smiled?: yea
kissed someone?: no
hugged someone?: yea, nick pants
last thing you ate?: mac n cheese

have you ever:
been in love?: no
kissed someone of the same sex: nope
been in trouble with the police? no
hit someone?: yea
broke something?: probably
played strip poker?: nope
skipped school?: no, I hate missing school
stole something?: no
shot a gun?: no
broke something important?: probably
smoked weed?: no
dyed your hair?: nope

okay last questions:
what is sitting next to you?: a table
do you get along with your mother?: when shes not being a spaz… so about 50% of the time
favorite sport?: soccer
been in a plane?: yep
kicked your cat for the hell of it?: no
slept during class?: like once… im scared to sleep in class
cheated on a test?: yea
are you bored of taking this survey?: not really
what time is it now?: 8:16
are you tired?: yea, a little

I was reading my users manual for my car again the other day and realized that driving with the check engine light can actually damage my car in the long run... im not too keen on findin that out.
<3Ashley

Rant on Sin City

2005-04-10T05:33:34Z

I have just seen the worst movie in the whole entire world... sin city. omg... im just in shock. It was super long, its made no sense whatsoever, it was about a bunch of guys going around killing people in order to protect whores. Jess and i laughed at it the whole entire time. it was that bad.
We should have just seen sarhara... which is what the guy mistakenly gave us tickets for at first... so we sat in the sahara theater until we realized it was the wrong movie... then jess talked to a manager who didnt think we were 17, n then we got to sin city right before it started... and then it was horrible lol... but we got some laughs... n then we got free passes for their mistake... so, that works... but all in all... i feel i have wasted my night, and my energy trying to figure out how any of the 3 stories fit together.
I'm tired of seeing people get shot... and talking heads... and chopping off body parts in black and white... and seeing things in 4 colors (black, white, red, and the orangish-yellow of the mutant who got his penis chopped off in the begining and needed a new one and had mutationous side effects)... i cant even remember what else... but im sure theres more.

lastly, in order to save myself from the million arguements i will have and lose regarding my opinion on the movie, i shall create a list of the good things about the movie.
1. the whole idea of it being in black, white, and red was really good and created a worthy tone for the movie
2. the plotline was nothing short of exciting... was never a dull moment

Also on a side note, i came home and looked up some stuff about the movie, which made the movie a little better.

orangemnm204 @ 2005-03-19T23:47:00

2005-03-20T04:54:54Z

seniors got back today... thats exciting... i missed them.

Went to a surprise party for my grandmother today... eh, not too bad. Drunk people amuse me, so i guess it works. Thats what you get when you make it open bar.

i had a jazz band competition friday... took up my whole half day which sucked, but all in all the bands we got to hear werent too bad, so i guess it all evens out.

I dunno, ever since the elections n all... ive kinda gained a new respect for myself and have limited the amount of crap i take from people. Like it or dont like it, i really dont care,

Um... i think thats all i have to say... im not big on details n such, so i dont intend to go into my whole guy thing... well, other than, the one person id generally discuss it with considering she knows both parties, i feel weird discussing it with. So all in all, im not gonna worry about it n im just gonna act like i never liked him liked him... but then id be lying.... so i dunno what im gonna do... blah... i really should talk to her...

sry if none of that above made sense lol

Ashmo

so f'in pissed....

2005-03-10T23:17:49Z

now this is a rant, so if u dont want to read it then dont, i really dont care.

So, i go to the gym around 5 n as im leavin i run into one of the girls from work n she says... how come u arent at work? n i was like what? n she was like yea, u were scheduled for work 3-8... but its ok now cuz kristinas got u. n i was like ok... i had no idea i was supposed to work because when i saw the schedule saturday i didnt get any hours. n so, ok, i left... told my mom... then stopped off at DQ cuz i needed to see this for myself. Come to find out he put up a different schedule n now i gotta work SATURDAY n i freakin made plans that i was really looking forward to on SATURDAY... SO NOW THE PLANS I MADE ON TUESDAY NOW NEED TO BE CANCELLED FOR THE PLANS I JUST FOUND OUT ABOUT ON THURSDAY... WTF... I AM SO PISSED OFF.

on top of that... the check engine light is back on... wtf... w.. t.. f...

orangemnm204 @ 2005-03-06T21:09:00

2005-03-07T02:04:52Z

my car goes in the shop tomorrow... overnight... that makes me sad. That means no car for at least one day. *Tears*

ASH

orangemnm204 @ 2005-03-05T23:36:00

2005-03-06T04:31:42Z

this week was so fun... i love my lunch table. Wednesday was john playing with a tampon at the lunch table... n Friday was the cream cheese fight between bigwood n john... its so much fun.

And this weekend i feel in love with southampton. its so awesome.

End.
Mo

orangemnm204 @ 2005-02-28T23:51:00

2005-03-01T04:45:56Z

Regret is a bitch. That is all.

orangemnm204 @ 2005-02-28T14:23:00

2005-02-28T19:27:24Z

Both of my fish died yesterday. How sad is that? Well, i dont think its sad, i think its kinda creepy... like just knowing that i had two dead fish in my house. At least this time i didnt have to see it as compared to last time, when i freakin accidentally killed the fish. That was upsetting. This time it was sort of like, last night i went to feed them before i went to bed and neither fish bowl was there, and so i just kind of assumed. So, this morning my parents asked me if i noticed the fish, and i said yea cuz i went to feed them last night and they werent there. My mom then said, well did u feed them yesterday and i said yea, n then she said, n u didnt realize they were at the bottom? I responded with, they are supposed to float when they are dead, not sink. Thats how i always would know they were still alive, but according to my parents, they both died yesterday. Poor fish. I dont think i ever even named those two. I know the first one i had was named Fenwick, but thats the one i accidentally killed about a year ago. Im just glad that these two werent my fault... but still, they died, and i should mourn that.

orangemnm204 @ 2005-02-24T16:12:00

2005-02-24T21:21:02Z

elections suck. I absolutely love being in student government and everything... but i feel that getting elected is the hardest part. Especially when there are people running against you... always makes things stressful... arg. Student Government President, VP, Treasurer, and Secretary elections are coming up... certainly interesting... i guess...

*EDIT* alright yea... forget the whole "im so stressed, i hate elections" thing i got goin on up there... Found a new way to look at it all... n thats why mike freakin rocks.

orangemnm204 @ 2005-02-20T19:02:00

2005-02-21T00:06:36Z

im gonna be a follower... lol

Ask me 5 questions.

Any five - no matter how personal, private, or random.

I have to answer them honestly.
I have to answer them all.

In turn, you post this message in your own journal & you have to answer the questions that are asked to you

<3 ASH

ah, life is good... life is good... wait... isnt there a saying or a prayer or something like life is good life is great (insert rest here) lol i dunno.... oh no wait... i just remembered... its not life, its god is good god is great... ok lol nvmd

orangemnm204 @ 2005-02-16T21:51:00

2005-02-17T02:59:32Z

i made the greatest analogy ever today... well at least i thought it was great. We were at the SET club rehearsal for their show thing tomorrow cuz the jazz band has to play for some odd reason... but anyway, people are dancing n singing n all sorts of stuff. So... they introduce "Tina Turner"... n i was confused... n out walks Mrs. South... singing "What's Love Got to do With it," with the track of course, but i was like oh. my. god. Now, first off, i must say that i give her a lot of credit for goin up there and i think that its awesome that she would get involved in something like this and actually participate. I really think its great, but as i was standin there behind her with the rest of the jazz band and shes workin the stage i couldnt help but think back to my favorite movie... 10 Things I Hate About You. So.. i came up with this... In 10 things i hate about you, their guidance counselor wrote sex novels... ours, thinks shes tina turner...

had to update about that...

<3 MO

orangemnm204 @ 2005-02-10T19:42:00

2005-02-11T00:55:05Z

well... i love my new classes... to an extent... havin Cap is awesome... and plus when i finish my projects n stuff i get to work on homework which is always a plus.
AP Calc.. that class just sucks lol... can't wait for it to end... then maybe we can work with numbers again... thatd be nice.
AP US... not that bad... a lot of work... havent really started the DBQ project due the 17th... gotta do that... n im currently procrastinating on a boring Progressivism paper right now...
Finally... the class im dying to discuss. No offense to anyone thats in my physics class... but i feel so remedial. We went over scientific notation for about 2 days... n then conversions for about 4... n we havent even gotten to significant figures yet. I feel like we move soooo slow, and because all that stuff i just went over was covered in chemistry, i already know it. Dr. Priestly, ok, shes a nice woman, but i feel like she goes so slow... and shes obsessive over her rules... n she can be a tad moody at times. I usually get bored out of my mind n do history homework... but when i cant do that... i dunno what to do. I dont pay attention though, so today i went ahead n did like 4 pages in a packet while she went over the one page. I dunno if im gonna make it through the semester. lol

ah, back to workin on the paper, i guess....
<3 The Ash

orangemnm204 @ 2005-02-04T16:24:00

2005-02-04T21:20:45Z

happy birthday to me
happy birthday to me
happy birthday to meeeeee
happy birthday to me

that is all... maybe i will update about my day later... i dunno... maybe not.

orangemnm204 @ 2005-01-28T11:39:00

2005-01-28T16:50:05Z

make a list of ten statements about yourself/your life.
- four of the ten statements must be lies.
- post your list and have people guess which four are lies.
- after getting people's guesses, announce the winners and the answers

here we go...
1. ive lived in twp all my life
2. i wanted to have a party when i reached 5 foot
3. i think way too much most of the time
4. i have some idea as of where i want to go to college
5. i know what i am going to major in
6. my car isnt purple
7. my birthday is february 4th
8. i think trombones are cool
9. i played soccer for about 7 years
10. i dont like band half as much as iused to

have fun...

also... im gonna be a dorkwad n do this one too.
01. Reply with your name.
02. I will say something about you.
03. Next, I will tell what song(s) remind me of you.
04. Then, I will tell you who you remind me of, celebrity/animated or otherwise.
05. Last, i will try to name a single word that best describes you.
06. Put this in your journal

<33ASH

orangemnm204 @ 2005-01-26T21:04:00

2005-01-27T02:14:22Z

arg... ap us test-a-ma-bob today... that was... special... and of course the dbq is on the one thing that i missed in class n have been puttin off lookin up... imperialism... lol arg, sucked for me.
Then we took a mock ap exam thing... that was special also lol but ive realized ive got more interesting stuff to learn ahead of me than all the crapola before. nice.

Then, after school I went to the mall with Keri. So much fun lol. Then we saw Tobin, n he walked around with us for a while, until we went into Claires... then he split. Twas fun.

9 more days... can't wait baby... very exciting.

<3 The Mo

orangemnm204 @ 2005-01-23T21:39:00

2005-01-24T02:44:36Z

Well... the model congress trip was awesome... so much fun.

I've been meaning to update like all weekend... but then i didnt... so now ive forgotten everything i wanted to update about... so that kinda sucks lol but whatev.

ok... im gonna go back to watchin the simpsons... farewell.

orangemnm204 @ 2005-01-19T23:22:00

2005-01-20T04:37:23Z

yay... model congress trip in like... 8 hours... im scared lol... yet it shall be a good time. I'm missing my first day of buddy system though... and stacy kinda has to go on the bus without me... so shes not happy with me... but, she is a big girl... i think she will be ok, and im sure she wont be alone... or so i hope...
then, today i held my first yac meeting... that was... special... very little input from people, which kinda sucked. New idea though, i dunno i wanna get more input from people not in the committee, so my new plan is to find an effective way to do that. by the way... i didnt even get a pass for my own meeting lol how messed up is that...
I'm currently watchin this show... its called the 700 club, its like some God-based show that they put on ABC Family after 11... its like praying n miracle stories n like inspirational stuff... interesting... but the guy kinda looks like an elf... the more i look the more i see it... so... im done...

For those of you that keep up... the countdown is 15 days... i dunno, its like as it gets closer, im getting less excited... maybe its just cuz of that massive amounts of school work ive gotten thrown at me, but i dunno, we shall see how excited i am after finals. I think maybe im realizing that getting my lisence is pretty much gonna cause a decline in spending time with my parents... n i guess thats kinda sad. then i started lookin at college stuff and that will cause the same effect... sad...
Then im gonna have to be chauffer for kathleen to brents... eh, not exactly my cup of tea... but she is my sister... so i'll do it.

yanno what else ive realized? ive been happier lately... like more fun and smiley... weird... not bad though... pretty awesome cuz i havent been this way in like so long... dunno why though... i dunno, i shant question it.

... n i think im done updating... yea...
farewell
Much Love... The Ashmo